I dropped Kieren off at Dawsons, Layla off at Alex's and Edd off at work on Sunday. Owyn was literally vibrating with excitement at this point. She has known "V" since they were 2 yrs old and have been BFF's since. Thats a BIG DEAL when your 7 and have weathered a divorce ,changes of schools, homeschooling and moving to BFE Hastings,Florida. It's suprising they still talk much less pick up where they left off, no matter how long it's been. So, the night before we had decided to make "V"'s gifts because we were broke and you just cannot show up for a B-day party empty handed. After an hour or so we found a website with instructions for recycled paper beads. This very much appealed to us as we are big on recycling everything we can. They are a little bit tedious to make at first but once you find your rythym they are a snap and so BEAUTIFUL! We rolled and varnished enough for a lovely friendship bracelet and decoupaged a plastic jewelry storage box with tissue paper and glitter(so when you open the lid theres a seperate pattern looking back at you) and filled each of the 12 compartments with a different colorful candy!
So, off to the big candy store downtown with our alloted $5 to purchase candy. This candy store sells candy by the pound out of big wooden barrels and is so reminiscent of my childhood that I think I enjoy it more than the kids do. We had to park about 3 blocks from the store (traffic in our small community gets very thick on weekends) and as we walked and enjoyed the breeze blowing in from the waterfront Owyn began to sing and insisted I join in. There we were, walking hand- in- hand, singing at the top of our lungs,"one way or another, I'm gonna get you- I'm gonna getcha getcha getcha getcha-one way or another.." too funny! the looks we were getting but it felt so right and so normal for us. She stopped to smell some pink hibiscus and I plucked one and put it ion her hair. Now she was definatley party ready. Our candies acquired we sauntered back to the car in much the same way we had left it, laughing and singing and sorted our goods into their compartments and headed to the party.
I dropped Owyn off (to our suprise they now lived within 10 minutes of us and the girls could see each other regularly again) and headed home. About a mile from home it hit me: I am ALONE. Wow, WTF? I didn't even know what to do with myself. Briefly I thought about taking a long hot bubble bath and diving headfirst into the hidden stash of little debbies and even having a glass of wine while running naked thru the house screaming at the top of my lungs,"I'M FREE, I'M FREE!!! heres what really happened.
I got out of the car, I checked for eggs (found 3) I pet the goat, I unlocked the front door and felt so ... lonely. I walked to my room ,changed into my comfy ,ugly clothes( you know the ones-the ones you MUSt wear when you feel sick or sad or LONELY-your comfort clothes.) I then began to craft. Yes, craft. and I did so for the next 6 hours. I uninterruptedly crafted like a mad woman. Making recycled paper bowls, and beads and stringing bracelets and cutting up T-shierts for looming rugs, the list goes on and on... I was amazed when my alarm went off to pick everyone up at how much I had getten acomplished-uninterrupted, and I didn't feel lonely at all anymore. It was refreshing. WTF? who knew?
Edd and kids home, safe and sound and suprised as well. Guess they all thought I was going to throw a house party or build a marijuana processing plant or who knows... LOL funny kids. They really believe my life with out would have been so exciting and so wild. They make my life exciting and wild and unpredictable. Without them in it I am just the old chicken lady sitting alone in her bed crafting for 7 hours. Thats me. Boring, middle aged me. I like me. She's a nifty, well read, capable chick. I think I'll keep her around and who knows we might get another home alone day to hang out together before the end of this decade!
On a serious note, AT&T disconnected my phone yesterday, because some nitwit in billing misread the instructions for my payment arrangement for THURSDAY-not tieadsy and shut it off. WTF?? again, but whatcha gonna do it's 1 day at this point soo... Also had to ask edd's Mother for another loan to get truck outta shop and pay for driving school and my ticket for the accident, that was a kick in the teeth-but can't pay the $900 AND the rent so , we do what we must to survive. Owyn is in VBS at the Baptist church near us and is loving it. She go to perform on stage last night with a microphone and all and is hooked! I guess we will be attending this Sunday, it's about time for us to find a new church home anyways. People there are nice and unpretentious. Pastor has a good voice so we are gonna give it a try. Owyn has also voiced her desire to return to public school so that she may make friends and socialize and participate in plays and miscals. Considering that we cannot afford to put her in dance or theater this year we are considering her request seriously. Will keep you posted.
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