I'm just too tired TO F*!K you, I'm not tired OF F*!%KING you....

                                So those were the words I drifted off to sleep to last night.. sweet huh? Thats my Boo.
This is what happens when LIFE happens. Funny how comforting those words were. I knew exactly what he meant. We still have the passion, the heat, the desire-but the fire is burning way down low and neither of us has the energy to stoke it these days.  Thats ok, There are things we value more than that and those things require very little energy and carry a helluva punch in a pinch. Like, the way my husband makes a point of never entering or leaving a room w/o touching me. NOT like that, just my shoulder, my waist, a kiss on the neck as I'm cooking. He says it's to remind he's still there. Nice huh? Like the way I watch him sleep when I wake-up before him and I am still so in love with that face that I know every curve of his full lips and the smell of his skin makes me swoon-still. I will take those things over sex anyday. Don't get me wrong the sex is-well, lets just say I am NOT disappointed. But, beyond that there is comfort, there is companionship and silent understanding & respect.
             I warned my bestie when she got married that ,"there would be a severe decline in her ample sex life". I don't think she believed me.As I spoke with her the other day, she did not seem as overraught as she thought she would be over it. She seemed...Happily married-to her best friend. That is what we should strive for I think. I don't always say,"Thank you" when Edd does a chore for me. He doesn't always compliment my cooking. But we know, that it's understood. I wouldn't want to do this with anyone else. Yes baby, I am too tired too-but not tired OF!! Those words are like I LOVE YOU to my ears.As long as there is interest, there is potential!!
             Having said that I awoke this morning to a beautiful day. Slept in, snuggled and made oatmeal for everyone ,even chickens. The latter like theirs with bananas and honey, Edd & kids w/cinnamon & brown sugar. Busy day clearing land. Edd and his machete blazing a goat path thru thorn crusted vines and spider filled tangles of medusa like underbrush like an Aztec warrior claiming new lands.It was indeed a mess! Edd emerged 2 hrs later looking  less than thrilled. I made navy beans in the pressure cooker (so tender and yummy) and hoe bread. Recipe for that will follow. It is an old fashioned corn cake named for the method used to cook it in the felds by farm hands. Farm hands would turn their hoes upside down over a fire and grill the cakes for their supper so they could keep working thru the evenings. 
                All of the chickens and duckies are doing well. New coop seems to be just right, although an expansion is right around the corner. Peeps will only be in the 100 gal. fishtank for another 2 wks, then they will integrate into the flock. I am debating taking a welding course this yr. I think it would be a very handy skill to have around here. We shall see how the summer fares before we make any firm decisions, but it is definately on my mind.
                                      UPDATE:  My sons BFF  drama is solved albeit temporarily. I love the kid & he has a bad situation & he needs a safety net. I spoke with him very maturely and apparently MOM is aware she made a "bad choice" but doesn't know what to do.She is weak and needy and broke. I know this story all to well. Wrote one like it once or twice even. She was not offended that I felt unsafe having my son around her BF and her son comes here instead. Problem solved-temporarily. I do not believe for 1 second this is over for good. Hank is still living in the kennel, we have not been able to decide how to proceed with him. Were it not for my daughter,he would be gone already. But she has such a tender heart and loves the ugly lil putz so much... the debate rages on. Layla's stitches are healing nicely-I should be taking them out in 2 or 3 days.

 roosters that live @ Buzzmart (metioned previously) 

        "cracker swamp road" leads into my hood.

"Roja"

and "Negra" The "black girls"

the henhouse hubby & I made <3

                 Spring Break is upon us and still no rain. I fear we will have many new wildfires in the area. Unfortunately there is little parental supervision ,due to the economy and a failing government, no one can afford day care/camp/sitters. Even grandma has a job now. So the teenagers are loose upon the world, full of misinformed knowledge and hormones and MONSTER ENERGY DRINKS. God help us!There will be  several new residents in the maternity ward come December this yr. and the juvenile court docket will certainly be full for April. Aaahhh tax dollars well spent. Posting pics of the coop and flock. Keep reading, keep clicking and flirt with your spouse, you never know where it will lead!

HOE CAKES:   4 cups yellow corn meal
                          2 large eggs
                          1-1/2 cups milk  
                          1/4 cup green onions diced
                          cayenne/salt/pepper to taste
                          1/2 lb bacon/grease(crumble bacon) reserve grease for frying cakes.
cook bacon and reserve grease for later. mix all ingredints in bowl ,add dash of cayenne(start slow usually1/4 teaspoon) . chopp bacon and add to mix. spoon into frying pan with hot bacon grease. cook approx 2-3 min ea. side til crisp drain on paper towels & enjoy!